The realest that I ever wrote

Imagine wanting more and getting it

I have truly opened my eyes to reality and felt what many do on regular basis.  I do believe that it is better to have loved and lost than to not have loved at all. Thankfully my situation is described in different words.  I need some time to get my life in order, to get my dreams into perspective and to truly understand my worth.  Absence will make the heart grow fonder and with each passing day, with God as my backbone and with the encouragement of my family, I will exceed even my expectations.  I believe in myself, I belive in my dreams, I believe that I deserve more out of life, out of my education, and out of my trials.  I will succeed and not just that, but go beyond the little things I was hoping for. 

I want to teach.  Ultimately I want to walk into my classroom and everyone look up knowing they have a jewel as a teacher, educator, lover of children and considerate human being.  I want to walk down the hall with my head held high in no way condescending but affirmed of who I am.  I will be the most desired Elementary school teacher for all children who attend the school in which I teach.  I want to be excited about going in every day with new, diverse activities that stretch the limits of the curriculm and branch off into Nature vs. Nurture terrritory.  I will be the most imaginative educator at my school.  Post master degrees and Ph.D, I would pursue a position as principal of the school I attend.  I will choreograph after school activities that will enhance my children's learning and keep them yearning to return.  I will write my heart out in novels, books composed of my poetry and short stories.  And I will continue to look back at where I've come from. 

I will be that Woman.  That woman that says what she means in a firm and stern voice, who lives each day to the fullest, fights with a passion for what she believes in and does not give up or give into anyone.


 My Writing...wow, I really want to take it to a whole nother level.  3 then 4 then 5 books bestselling, and ones that I can truly be proud of and feel accomplished.  I want to give lectures, do speeches on the thought process behind my work.  Hold workshops to teach the young and old how to truly express themselves.  I plan to travel.  A lot.  I'd love to take many with me, but if I must do it alone, I will.  I want to take trips to different states and use grant money for all my travel expenses.  I want to make use of all the resources offered to authors who have great notions.  I'll sit and write in cafe's, hotels, parks, and musuems.  I'll gather inspiration from watching others around me.  Listen to all types of music, watch all kinds of movies, retain information from every conversation I carry.

I wanna drive cross-country eating @ Mom & Pop restaurants along the way. I crave to reach such a level of satisfaction that nothing can bring me down.  I want to be able to take moments to myself to regain composure then keep it moving because that's what lifes about.  moving on.  Moving forward and never forgetting where you came from and who got you to where you needed to be.  I want a glorious life filled with the simplistic treasures of society.

I want a split refrigerator that pumps out crushed ice whenever I want it.  It doesn't even have to be stainless steel, I just want one of those. 
I want a hammock, just so I can lay and count the stars.  The stars I never counted when I was younger and had all the free time in the world. 
I want to be able to decide on a Friday that I want to go away for the weekend ...and then go...wherever I desire. 

I desire to be that woman my husband looks forward to coming home to every night.  The type that makes marraige life adventurous, challenging, (in a positive way) , and worth while.  And I crave to have a husband that does the same for me.  He gives 60 and I give 60.  You can't lose if you think alike and you have similar goals, not necessarily dreams but just aspirations to end up in a roundabout same location in the universe. 

I want to raise my children in the church but not bombard them with the politics of religion.  I just want the spirit to carry them wherever they feel comfortable going.  I want them to know about the WORLD and not just the United States.  I want them to ask as many questions, as often as they like. (; I will be the 1st to say:"keep going, we're getting somewhere."  I want them to know so much.  And enjoy school, and love reading all kinds of books, and I like going to musuems, parks, galleries and plays; appreciating the significance of all forms of Art.