Evening had fallen

Evening had fallen
And I stood at the window peering at the glassy pool with moonlight kissing its surface.  Despite the hour, my being was elated...and what a pleasant change when I've been forced to supress those feelings dwelling in a male dominated society. "It's a man's world" runs through my head as I catch my reflection and a glint of doubt streaks my expression. I've realized that we have to die alone yet we're so dramatic, so romantic when our bodies share the same space.  But perhaps this thinking was a bit much for tonight's occasion ...slowly I felt the auora of happiness trinkle thorough my fingers like sand untouched by the tide water.  There was a few minutes before the clock would strike 11...so my thoughts traveled on roads with very few dead ends.  My heart is bustling with activity and honestly its never rested, never slept.  For days, I've awaited this moment and has never come so late, and never have I been so unwilling to wait...to wait...for confirmation...A knock at the door stopped time and my mind momentarily stopped racing.


See this is about being grown, being mature and being brave yet...I'm emotional, as I tiptoe to the door with apprehension, the greeting short, slight smile but then he walked pass.  I sigh in anitcipation..the conversation short..don't know what to prove. The words I wanna say..written all over my face: "I just can't decide...if i'ts you I trust, don't wanna choose between having you in my life or telling you goodbye...

He captivates my indecisiveness in one long embrace.  It's almost unreal, as I become short of breath, his lips caress my neck, it's as if I've been wounded, because I'm hurt yet this major display of affection makes the pain...disappear.  Mind over matter phenomena.  I caught felings because they would have shattered if I let them fall. 

"I'm in love with you"  is what he whispered in my ear.
And I ....I
whispered back eagerly....

"Show me"